Big Night Out 2010 was great. Saosin, Rise Against, Muse all delivered mindblowing performances. Sadly for Saosin, the stadium was like only half-filled during their performance. Have made a playlist with the songs from Big Night Out to relive it lol. But damn it, although it was just 3 days ago, it feels more like 3 years after today.
Sigh. I don't think i'm capable of holding the responsibility. Letting myself down, i can take. But after everyone works their asses off, and all that hard work is undone by my mistakes...
Faith. Maybe in this case, its a form of delusion as described by Dawkins. Working hard doesn't mean that you'll be good enough. I've said it for other people, and i know that it's true for myself too. It's not a sacrifice for the team, rather its more of the opposite if i'm still in.
"Step up a gear," can I do that? I'm not sure of it myself. But i'll just continue deluding myself that bit longer.. until the next test comes.
But besides that, i'd like to say good job to my teammates who really fought hard through the dirty play of the opposition bastards. Lost control of myself today and screamed expletives, hope u guys can forgive me.
Another shitty weekend. To make things worse, Ivory Coast bloody won the World Cup on my Football Manager. Hope things get better tomorrow.