This is going to be another bullshit post, so please don't read it if your mood is easily affected.

I thought i'd had my mind made up after what happened on New Year's Day. That i'd give it all up and move on with life. But somehow, it seems that i've failed. I gave you a present on your birthday, continued trying to talk to you, but at least i didn't do anything stupid on Valentine's day.

Having had the full bloody day with nothing to do, my mind went wandering off to you again.
I thought about how I tried so hard to avoid you everyday, but somehow i would keep seeing you. And i really couldnt stop my own feelings. Then came the concert. I did everything i could to get the tickets. I called every single minute when i was free, hoping to call through and win the tickets. I tried to find anyone who would sell one to me. But it seems like it was never meant to be. I bought the album on the 10th, thinking that i could still win a ticket, not knowing i was cheated by the bloody cashier that it had one of the tickets, when in truth the results were already out and they had removed all the albums with tickets in them. That night, i tried talking to you. The next day too. But all i got was the cold shoulder. Again.

But i really don't blame you. Its not your fault for not acknowledging the things i've done. In fact, its more out of selfishness that i've been doing these things. Yes, all i wanted was to see a smile that I, myself, put on your face. Seeing you happy wasn't enough, what i wanted was to MAKE you happy. Then again, it really has been foolish thinking. I can't give you what you want. Im not good looking, rich, talented or a good singer(lol).

The past two years, i've had a great time. Even though i didn't really get anything in return, i'm really happy. But i guess its time to let go.

I SWEAR I WILL MAKE IT THIS TIME!

On a side note, Its the March Holidays! ACG competition was quite ok. DoTA results were disputed :/ And it could have been handled better.. And i flared up at the geeks who took part in Halo 3, which i really regret but i couldnt stand it at the time. But overall the event went quite smoothly, with only FIFA being delayed due to the lack of an XBOX 360. The finals (and Semifinals) are going to be held on the first day of school, i really hope it'll gather a huge crowd haha.

Then, spent yesterday slacking around. Also went to watch Dear John, which sadly wasnt as good as the book. (i.e IT DIDNT MAKE ME CRY!) After that, pigged out at Bugis, went home, and was too lazy to study.

And a wondrous thing happened today! I studied/did work for 2 hours today :O I was suddenly feeling motivated, so i did some math and revised econs. Hopefully this happens again tmr, and i start studying for the chem test :/ I reaaally need to do well for it this time!

Looking forward to training tmr :D