Im bloody 18-_-

Reflecting on it, i realise i've spent much of my past 18 years idling around. I havent done anything REALLY meaningful. I don't have any major achievements, besides winning the Newpaper Cyber Challenge thing with Elton. I don't have good grades. I don't have a clear future path in mind. What the hell have i been doing?

But then again, i HAVE lived 18 years. Laughing and crying, loving and hating. Memories treasured, memories better forgotten. I guess its all part of 'Growing Up'? I don't feel wiser though.

Didn't exactly have a memorable birthday (Besides the birthday chicken hahaha), but thanks to all those who wished me happy birthday :)

Anyway, for you if you're from the soccer team... (or not)

~Extract from Coach's website~

THE END OF OUR JOURNEY
The adventure finally ended in a 0-2 defeat to CJC. Ironically, it was one the best attacking performance which saw the boys applying persistent sustained pressure on the opponents. It was the same old story of not applying the finishing touch, failing to convert numerous chances to equalise, that allowed our rivals to counter attack and scored the decisive goal.
The match against VJC was huge as having an advantage in the goal difference would improve our chances of qualifying.Although it would have been out of our hands, after we drew in the last 2 games in the lead up to this one. Despite having no opportunity to practice, the boys braved the odds to reduced the highly anticipated thrashing to a 0-5 scoreline (cjc lost 0-8,tjc lost 0-7,acs (i) 0-16). This suggested that we would have the best goal difference should the rest of the other teams tied. The boys showed discipline, resillence and lots of heart to follow tactical instructions. Any criticism to our approach and play outside our team is probably borne out of frustration and lack of understanding. NO PROPER TEAM would like to be on the end of a hiding, and given the limited pool of talent, resources, & training, should put out the most effective display to qualify.
The old but feared habit of complacency set in and a woeful lack of finishing cost us our confidence and eventually qualification hopes. Oddly, there was a loss in concentration, speed and tempo in our game. You need to score goals to win games, andwe didnt. I must say that the opponents, ACS (I) took the game to us early on by reacting to the ball better, faster. Physically, the players were not prepared to fight tooth and nail to win the ball. Final score 0-0
An extremely encouraging display of attacking football and good defending in TJC game that finally ended in a 1-1 draw. With better luck, we should have wrapped up the game. Lack of experience and lady luck cost us an equalising penalty that should not have been. It would have been the only goal of our tournament, scored by Captain Yong Seng and he would be the top scorer (2) for DHS in its short soccer history. The other scorers are Ziren (1st ever), Keng Hoe (Winning goal in our first and only victory to date) and Yuhding (1st ever penalty scored)
Harder training awaits…. Summary on individual player coming up.

~End~

Reading this brought back the flush of feelings from the tournament. It just ended 2(3?) weeks ago, but it feels like a year. Beginning to miss training alr :/

Feel like im drifting apart from so many of my friends. Can't do anything but feel the despair of helplessness, cause i don't know how to turn it around.

Shall drown the world out with Alesana woohoo